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Men and Women who are Larger than Life

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can you tell me, oh whoa, if you're flowers gonna grow... [Aug. 2nd, 2004|09:43 am]
Men and Women who are Larger than Life

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[heroicduties]
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[music |Garbage-"Supervixon"]

I haven't posted in here in a while and I thought that I would. I have a book that I highly recommend, even though its sort of teenie, its called "The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big, Round Things" Its about a 15 year old plus sized girl and her coming of age, some of her trials and tribulations. I related to her completely because I am a plus sized 15 year old girl. It was really cute. Anyway, school shopping has proven to be a bitch,as always...its so hard to find something that fits right that isn't floral. I also have come to find that jean makers dont like to make jeans tight fitting, I guess they don't want to see it. The legs to the jeans I buy always have literally 4 inches of extra fabric circumference wise, its very annoying, the problem is easy to fix, but it would be nice to buy a pair that I dont have to alter.Everything in my closet is so conservative. Even though I am a young republican that doesn't mean I have to dress like one all the time, I would like to show a little more than my elbows and ankles.
Also, some advice is greatly needed... I was bowling the other day and one of the lane techs was really cute and I noticed he was looking at me. I am going back this Sunday but I am too chicken to say anything for fear of rejection or the fact that maybe he was checking out one of my very cute, skinny friends which always seems to be the case. Its hard going places with my friends and my sister and seeing guys talk to them and ask them for phone numbers and totally over look me as if I were noting more significant than a park bench.I suppose my time will come to find someone that finds me desirable. Well, enough with the therapy session. I hope everyone is doing well! Tell me how things are going in your lives.
Have a great day,
Jessica
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From: mary___mayhem
2004-08-08 06:37 pm (UTC)
im just passing through the community, but
i COMPLETELY AGREE WITH YOU!
i know how it feels.
my sister and i go cruise in the city all the time and look at the boys with nice cars, and when we go. i feel like im totally invisible.
it sucks.
but. dont let it get you down,
and GO FOR THE BOY AT THE BOWLING ALLEY!
balls to the wall dear... as my lacrosse coach likes to say.
just DO IT!
::Swoosh::
<3 leah
ps.. leave a comment on my journal sometime. i'd love to dish with you and swap photos!!!

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[User Picture]From: heroicduties
2004-08-15 10:59 am (UTC)
Thanks! I haven't been back to the alley but I think Ill at least try. Balls to the wall baby!
<3Jessica
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From: pantsthief
2004-08-09 11:10 pm (UTC)
I know exactly what you mean also. I may be as pretty as my friends, but I'm much bigger than all of them and when we're out I'm the seat-saver, not the one being watched or talked to. As far as I can tell I'm completely invisible.
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[User Picture]From: heroicduties
2004-08-15 11:03 am (UTC)
It hurts and it sucks that "big people" are always over looked. Or the ones being asked to give out other people's phone numbers, or the one being asked to move down in the theatre so you can be replaced by a strange guy. But, being able to overcome that is what makes us the stronger people. Keep trucking and keep a positive attitude, optimism never hurt anyone.
<3Jessica
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[User Picture]From: auronsgirl
2004-08-25 05:44 pm (UTC)
If it makes you feel any better, most girls feel that way at 15, unless they've been made to think they're the most beautiful girl on the planet. And, let's face it, teenage boys aren't exactly the most intelligent beings on the planet. They need time to mature and grow, just like girls do.

It's entirely possible the young man at the bowling alley WAS looking at YOU. Not every guy likes the skinny girls, some admire a young woman with curves. Personally, I was always drawn to the pudgy, nerdy guys who are far more attractive to me than some football "stud."

At 15, no one judges people for who they are, since you're not done becoming who you're going to be. Those boys will grow up, and they will learn that what's between a woman's ears is much more important than her pants size.

Go back and talk to that boy. Show him who you ARE - beauty AND brains. Remind yourself that you are a beautiful person, and friendly too. People will pick up on that more than what the tag says in your clothing or what the scales say.

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[User Picture]From: heroicduties
2004-08-28 08:23 am (UTC)
Aw thank you, that does make me feel better! PS. I LOVE the Lupin Icon!!!!
<3Jessica
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